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Anxiety

I have been seeing Guy 3 for about a week and a half. I’ve been seeing him so much that he caught my cold; and he got the worse version. Things have been or had been going well…however the last couple of days my anxiety has kicked in overtime. Here’s a brief overview of our time together:

First Date: We met at a local bowling alley and bowled four games. By the time game four came around we were already hugging each other and being kind of touchy- feely. We continued the date and went for a walk at a lake. I had forgotten to take my jacket with me and the evening was cold. So the classic “Let me keep you warm” scenario played itself out. We talked about life and jobs and high schools while snuggling in front of the lake. At one point he asked me how tall I was and I answered and he said “That’s a good size” then he kissed me. I am pretty sure there were fireworks because we continued to kiss for a long time. We continued to kiss as we made our way back to his car and I can now mark off making out in a grocery store parking lot from my Life List.

Date 2: This date occurred the next night. I was leaving for Portland for the holiday weekend and he wanted to see me. Guy 3 brought me food and we watch “The Count of Monte Cristo”. I found it very sweet and caring that he took the initiative and just brought food. I had told him that I don’t keep much food around my apartment. After the movie we snuggled, being chaperoned by my two kittens. On a side note the kittens are quite taken with him…

Date 3: Date three was the first sleepover, and how he got my cold. Most of our communication through out the week had been through texting and as we were textinghe invited me over and I knew if I went over there I would more than likely fall asleep. So I saw his apartment which is filled with plants and exercise stuff. We snuggled and fell asleep. That’s it, no more than that. There was not naked cuddling, just plain ol’ cuddling and sleeping in each other’s arms.

Date 4: He came over to my house for another movie, bringing food again. Afterwards we snuggled and had what I call “The sex Talk”. Which consisted of a brief overview of The Guy and He- who -will- not- be- named. And an explanation of why I don’t want to jump into sex unless I am in love and in a guaranteed committed relationship. He seemed to understand my point of view.

Here is where the anxiety comes in…I didn’t hear from him the next day. I did text him and found out that he had slept for sixteen hours. Yikes! Our texting was the same as usual nothing seemed amiss…but I didn’t hear anything from him yesterday. Now he seems like the type of guy who is going to tell a girl that its just not working for him any more…hopefully. But I am still worried that what I told him is going to put him off. Or he’s still sick. I don’t know. I was told I should just be myself which would consist of me texting him to make sure he is doing okay which I will do after work today if I haven’t heard from him.

I think part of the problem is I put a lot of eggs in this one basket. I decided I would stop dating if things didn’t work with Guy 3. Of course when I said that I didn’t expect date one to go well or the following week for that matter…but I am also used to guys being complete douche bags. I want to say that I am really like this guy but I am sure I said this about The Guy. So I am into this guy and do see a potential in the growing relationship…but I don’t know if he sees the same thing…ya know? And this is why dating is dumb and I shouldn’t date…too much anxiety for me.